Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Graf #15
Course Evaluation

Part I

What can I say about Eng 101, the online course. Well I can say that it was an English course and it involved a lot of writing. I can say that I was surprised at how easy it seemed to write about the topics. I think that there was a wide variety of prompts and it gave me the opportunity to be original and actually enjoy what I was writing about. I was so surprise when I realized that we were going to write types of essays and we could pretty much write about any topic as long as we could make it work in that particular style of essay. I really liked that. And to be honest I never realized that there were different styles of five paragraph essays. That really blew my mind. I think that you should defiantly keep the course set up the way it in now. I found it to be so much easier, and less stressful than any other English course I have taken. I think this class was defiantly worth my time and my money. If I had the choice to choose between this course and an English at a school like UMaine I would choose this one, no contest. I have never had an English class that taught me so much about essays. Most teacher as so concerned with spelling and grammar that they overlook the structure and the set up, let alone if the student even knows about classification, example and all the other forms of essays. So I thank you for peaking my interest and making me feel as though my money was well spent.
Part II

Freestyle Week #2
The First Walk

There it is, that's my song, I have to go now. But I can't move. Come on feet move. Okay here we go just one more step. Drop everything and fluff it out. There's mom okay she has to do this with me so everything is going to be okay. I can do this, this is my dream come true so just shut up and enjoy it. Your beautiful and everybody is here to see you so smile. Okay slowly now, wow... there are so many people. The room if overflowing with bodies, all looking at me. Hope they like my dress. Oh oops, I think I'm squeezing moms arm to hard it looks like of white. Wow... look at him up there, I have never seen him smile like that. He isn't taking his eyes off me and I don't want to take mine off him but if I don't I might trip. Damn peripheral vision I can see all my friends standing up there and they all look so beautiful they are going to make me cry. Oh Megan shut the hell up, stop being nervous and clear you head so you can remember every second of this. Whoops, I just said hell in a church, but it was only in my head so maybe it doesn't count.
Kiss mom and take Brian's hand, simple, I got that down. Wow, look at him, he is it, he is the one, the only one for the rest of my life. I can't believe we are here, I can't believe all those people are here. I didn't even know we knew that many people. Concentrate you idiot the Pastor is talking to you fool. Yadda yadda yadda... I will. Ring. Kiss. Wow I hope they like that kiss, we did MUCH better than at rehearsal. It is over. I did it, I married my high school sweetheart, the love of my life. I'm MARRIED. I can't believe how easy that was what did I sweat so much for that was a breeze. Now we just have to walk out of here and go party. Here we go, the first time my husband and I will every walk side by side together. Ah, close your eyes and just take a deep breath and inhale all this love and joy, a new beginning is here and everybody is here so share in the happiness with us. This is the first walk of the rest of our lives.

This was my favorite piece. I think I enjoyed writing it a lot because it was me, it was genuine. Usually when I write it is forced to some extent, but not this piece. As I was writing this my eyes were filled with tears because I was remembering my wedding day. It was so true and real and I felt like I was in the writing. Until I wrote this I always felt weird about telling people that I am married. I know there is nothing wrong with being married, and I am not ashamed of it but I just hate getting the standard reaction. "What, your so young, why would you want to get married so young." But when I wrote this I kind of helped myself realize that it was a beautiful day, I have a wonderful marriage and I should be proud of it. So this piece has a lot of meaning to me and it was just something that I felt proud of.

Freestyle week 15

So this is it. The last post to the blog called Megan Raynel. I can't believe how fast this semester has gone. I say this at the end of each semester as though I for some reason think that the semester ahead of me is for some odd reason going to drag on forever. I just wanted to say that I have really enjoyed this experience. I have never felt comfortable sharing my work in an English class before. I started to take ENG 101 at UMaine and found that writing only 5 essays that all revolved around the same boring topic to be a drag, perhaps that is why I dropped the class in the first week. Though English isn't my favorite subject I think that I have written a few things that I can say I am proud of. I am not even close to being a good writer but I feel like I have accomplished something in this course. I really like the idea of posting my assignments for others to read and not having to stand in front of a class as people stare, bored at me while I read. Though I enjoyed this semester I am also VERY glad it is over. Farewell ENG 101.

Prompt Reaction # 15


I am at a loss for words, ideas and creativity. The rain is like a symphony blasting music against the roof. I close my eyes and listen to the music and hope that an idea will come to my mind. But nothing. No ideas, no words not even one creative thought has protruded into my brain. Nothing at all. I have pounded away at this keyboard for so long now, I am just drained. The rain has washed away my will to write for today. As I sit here quietly listening for ideas the symphony picks up the tempo as the rain drums harder and harder against the metal roof. This is the last English class I will ever have to take and I should make this piece one to remember. This one should lift me up and let me float across the rocks with the rain. But not today, not this piece. It has been washed away. The rain has stopped and left me with nothing except a few jumbled words. Maybe the sun will come out tomorrow and mixed with the left over rain, maybe, just maybe tomorrow my creativity will grow in this new season.

Friday, May 05, 2006

Essay 6 Revision #2

People say that in this computer age the computer is replacing human beings. Well in a way they are kind of right. But I like to think of it more as a computer is designed like the human. When I think about my computer, I realize it is a lot like me. It has a motherboard, which is like the my brain, it has a modem which is like my mouth and voice, and a computer gets overloaded and crashes once and a while. I defiantly get overloaded and crash, almost as much as my computer. If you ask me that sounds a whole lot like the human body. Like the human body computers sometimes have aches and pains. As a matter of fact my computer is like a crippled old man with osteoporosis. Every week there is a new broken bone. Sometimes I think my computer and I are in competition for who gets aches and pains the most, I actually think that I would beat my computer.

When I think about how my brain works I am amazed at how much it is like the mother board in a computer. A computer needs a mother board to tell all the other components what to do and how to do what it is doing. Without the mother board the hard drive wouldn't know what information needs to be saved and what information can be thrown out. Like a mother board, my brain runs the rest of my body. Now I don't use a sequence of 0's and 1's to tell me what to do but my body does use certain environmental ques, for example if it is hot I sweat like a pig; it doesn't take a numerical code to tell my body to sweat, it took an internalized environmental que. One thing that my brain operates is my mouth and my ability to use a voice.

This is similar to the modem in a computer. We click a button and the mother board tells the modem to connect to the internet where we email and instant message people from all over the world. Like the modem in a computer human beings are equip with a mouth. People like me , are very good at using their mouth to communicate with others. Using our mouth we get what we want and we communicate our feelings with others, just as a computer does with its modem.
Like the human body a computer has many small pieces or organs that all work together to make the computer run smoothly. And just as humans get over loaded so does a computer. When a computer gets overloaded you see a blue screen that says error, when a human gets overloaded you see them get angry or depressed. I am known for causing myself to have an overload because my internal system doesn't always send me a good enough warning that if anymore information is thrown in I just wont be able to process it, and the same thing happen with computers.
Now you see the world isn't replacing people with computers they are simple creating computers that imitate humans so that things can be done quicker and easier without overloading the human race. It is a much better option to have a $500 dollar computer crash than it is to have a priceless human being crash.

In my opinion computers are very helpful to humans. The problem is that computers are created by humans, humans with flaws. So you have something flawed creating something that is inevitably going to be flawed as well. Now computers are all well and good until they start taking jobs always from people, and crashing. Computers actually have the power to destroy a human life. Everything that is precious and private to us is on the computer in one way or another and it is just a mouse click away from so sick person with too much time on their hands. I just think that there can be too much of a good thing, and people need to remember to use caution before they replace people with computers.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Essay 5
Division or Example

To everything in life there is a map, a recipe or a list of components if you will. Being a good student is no exception, whether you are a middle school, high school or a college student there is a recipe that needs to be followed in order to get a pleasant result. Any good student must be organized enough to be readily able to find things, they must participate in class, and they must put 100% effort in if they want to get a good grade. Now like any recipe there are slight variations to this but any variation has a little different outcome, some not so pleasant.

First of all a good student should be organized. They need to have folders or binders with their work in them with some kind of system so that when they need to find something they can find it without going through every bit of work they have done for the past year. I am a very organized person. All my classes have folders which are plainly labeled and they are all divided into sections so that I can easily find things. I am really good about being on time to class and coming prepared with everything I need, including homework completed. I once had this project due and I stayed up until 4 in the morning doing, and redoing my visual aid because I was so sure that I wouldn't get a good grade if it wasn't just a little bit more organized and had all straight lines. That is one part of the recipe I have always had to measure out perfectly. One variation from the recipe I have is that I don't like to participate very much.

I am a very shy person and rarely volunteer to answer questions or even as questions if I don't understand things. The biggest reason I don't like to ask questions is because of a bad experience in a college class. When I went to UMaine I was in a lecture class with approximately 300 students. There was this girl who asked at least one question every class. I almost always had the same question and appreciated somebody asking. After about 4 weeks of class the other students started laughing at her and making rude comments until she stopped asking questions. You could tell that the teacher was even dreading her asking questions. After that I decided that it is easier to just let my question go unanswered. A good, well rounded student, needs to be willing to participate in discussions, answering questions and once and a while maybe participate in a demonstration. This lets the teacher know that the student isn't just sitting in class dreaming about their girlfriend or boyfriend. Teacher like to know that students are listening and understanding the material. A good way to show a teacher that you are listening is to look at them when they are talking and make eye contact when appropriate.

Another thing that is important is trying. A good student should put 100% effort in everything they do. If you work really hard on one project then kind of slack off on the next the teacher is going to know. They know when you just did it real quick before class started, and they are likely to grade with that in mind. In my opinion there isn't much point in doing something if you aren't going to do your best, it is kind of a waste of time. I just try to do everything as good as I can because of the perfectionist who hides deep in my soul. My teachers always comment that my projects always look like I spend a lot of time and effort on making them my best. The truth is that I always put things off until the very last minute. Usually the day before, this is when my computer crashes and I have to do a mad dash to the computer lab before class. It is kind of hard to believe that last minute situations are when I do my best work.

Now I'm not saying that there is any such thing as a perfect student, because there isn't even a such thing as a perfect cookie, even if you do follow the recipe to the tee, everybody's oven varies cooking times. But it is important that everybody who wants to be a successful student try their hardest to be a good cookie. I always tell myself if you don't try then there is no chance you will succeed.

Practice Final
Essay 7

Hobbies

When people ask me what my hobbies are, I always hesitate before answering. My favorite pass time isn't something that you would expect of a girl like me. I am a very neat and clean girl who likes to primp my hair and paint my nails. My secret is that underneath that all I like to work on cars. I grew up with two older brothers who were always tinkering on cars. Somehow I became just as interested in cars and motors as they were.
When I was a kid my brothers were always working on cars or ATVs and I was out in the garage right in the middle of it all. As a kid I was the go getter. My brother would yell from under the car what tool he needed and I would go grab it. Once and a while I would grab the wrong tool; he would scream in my face that I was a girl and belonged inside with my dolls. Once I got the tool names learned I was actually quite handy to have in the garage. My brother would always give me the job the involved the most grease and oil, and I loved it. I was the only girl in the garage and my brothers friends would always tease me and tell me to go get a doll, but I never let that bother me. I just loved being with my brother and feeling a part of something he enjoyed.
As I got older my interest in cars just grew stronger. I like the physics and math that is involved. With cars things have to be precise and oiled just right in order to run smoothly. I enjoy listening to the motor, taking pieces a part and trying to figure out what is causing the problem. Everything with cars has a certain way they are supposed to work, and I enjoy looking at the broken part and trying to figure out the way it is supposed to be. When I was younger I was just responsible for catching a wrench, but as I get older my brother has me actually help take apart the motor. The only problem I have is trying to get the bolts off; I don't have the arm strength that most men have.
Now that I am an adult and I have a garage of my own my brother and I have a small business of fixing up cars. My brother lives with me so we worked out a deal. I buy a cheap car that needs work, and my brother works on the car while teaching me about what he is doing. I help him as much as I can and I always try to figure out what is wrong before he tells me. I am actually getting pretty good at diagnosing minor problems like brakes, bad gas, head gaskets, vacuum hoses and other common car ailments. I have grown older but my interest in engines and fast cars hasn't changed a bit.
I have a dream of buying an old car and fixing it up without the help of my brother. As a child my dream was to get the right wrench for my brother, and that has grown in a love for tinkering on junk cars. It is a very fulfilling feeling to take a junk car and turn it into a smooth running beast on the road. I like loud exhausts and turbo engines. Not all girlie girls are so concerned with their nails that they are afraid of getting a little grease under them.

Essay 6 REVISED

People say that in this computer age the computer is replacing human beings. Well in a way they are kind of right. But I like to think of it more as a computer is designed like the human. If you think about it a computer has a motherboard, which is like the human brain, it has a modem which is like the human mouth and voice, and a computer gets overloaded and crashes once and a while. If you ask me that sounds a whole lot like the human body. Like the human body computers sometimes have aches and pains. As a matter of fact my computer is like a crippled old man with osteoporosis. Every week there is a new broken bone.

When I think about how my brain works I am amazed at how much it is like the mother board in a computer. A computer needs a mother board to tell all the other components what to do and how to do what it is doing. Without the mother board the hard drive wouldn't know what information needs to be saved and what information can be thrown out. Like a mother board, the human brain runs the rest of our body. Now we don't use a sequence of 0's and 1's to tell us what to do but we do use certain environmental quiz, for example if it is hot we sweat, well it didn't take a numerical code to tell our body that but it took an internalized environmental qua. One thing that our brain operates is our mouth and our ability to use a voice.

This is similar to the modem in a computer. We click a button and the mother board tells the modem to connect to the internet where we email and instant message people from all over the world. Like the modem in a computer human beings are equip with a mouth. Some people more than others, are very good at using their mouth to communicate with others. Using our mouth we get what we want and we communicate our feelings with others, just as a computer does with its modem.

Like the human body a computer has many small pieces or organs that all work together to make the computer run smoothly. And just as humans get over loaded so does a computer. When a computer gets overloaded you see a blue screen that says error, when a human gets overloaded you see them get angry or depressed. Humans are known for causing themselves to have an overload because their internal system didn't send a good enough warning that if anymore information is thrown in they just wont be able to process it, and the same thing happen with computers.

Now you see the world isn't replacing people with computers they are simple creating computers that imitate humans so that things can be done quicker and easier without overloading the human race. It is a much better option to have a $500 dollar computer crash than it is to have a priceless human being crash.
In my opinion computers are very helpful to humans. The problem is that computers are created by humans, humans with flaws. So you have something flawed creating something that is inevitably going to be flawed as well. Now computers are all well and good until they start taking jobs always from people, and crashing. Computers actually have the power to destroy a human life. Everything that is precious and private to us is on the computer in one way or another and it is just a mouse click away from so sick person with too much time on their hands. I just think that there can be too much of a good thing, and people need to remember to use caution before they replace people with computers.

Freewrite week 14

All week I have thought of only two things. One I need a job and two I have an English test. Theses two things have completely clouded my mind and put a strain on my brain. I have only been able to think about all the things that I need to do this week. I have to drive to Caribou and back Friday night. And that really pisses me off because that is an eight hour trip, and with that much time on the road I should be going to New York, not Caribou. Then on Saturday of all days I have a job interview. As if it isn't stressful enough to know I need a job really bad, I have to drive to Hallowell for an interview for a job I probably won't even like. GREAT. WONDERFUL. EXCITING. I WISH. Well there is a light at the end of the tunnel. School is almost out and I finally go tickets to see Nickelback and Hoobastank.

Prompt Reaction Week 14

The door slammed, and I never looked back. "Fuck this shit" I am not going to sit there and listen to the scraggly toothed old hag lecture me about life. She is a high school drop out who got knocked up when she was 16 and lived her entire life off the state until she met an ass with money and screwed his brains out until he married her. She thinks I am going to sit there and let her tell me what I should do with my life. I don't care if she spent a week in agonizing labor to have me, she can kiss my ass if she thinks I am going to listen to her tell me that I need to go back to high school. I am already better than her and I don't need a high school diploma to make it in the world. I have a man who loves me and a GED. I am going to college at night and holding down a full time job, and I don't have any rugrats running around. So I should be telling her how to live her life. As soon as she said I was going to be a lowlife like my father I knew I couldn't stand it one more second. So I grabbed my things and said see ya bitch and I walked out the door. Jumped in my car and headed down the road. I don't need her shit anymore.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Prompt Reaction Week 13

We are gathered here today to remember the loving and kind spirit of Megan Raynel Littlefield. What can you say about Megan that those who know her don't already know. She was such a quiet soul. But anybody who took the time to get to know her knows that she was only quiet until you got to know her. Megan always tried to do the right thing, but like everybody who walks the earth she wasn't perfect, but Megan always tried to learn from her mistakes and become a better person because of them. Everybody who loved her will tell you that you could see an entire world happening within those giant brown eyes of hers. Megan was a devoted wife and mother of three. There was nothing in the world that meant more to her than her family. The last time we talked at the hospital she asked me to give her children one last message from her and this is what she said, "You children gave me with will to breath and enjoy life, I want you to remember that I will love you for eternity, and when you look at the clouds in the sky I will be on the one that is sitting above you and I will be smiling and waving at you with love and pride that you are my children."

Freestyle week 13

My ramble... Today has got to be one of the worst days I have had in a long time. I feel so sick that sitting here at the computer makes me wish I could crawl in a hole and hibernate. My wonderful husband gave me a touch of mono, and my head feels like a train just ran into it. To top it off I have to drive to Bangor in a couple hours for class. I have finally finished my portfolio and today should be a relieving wonderful day because all my work for my class is done. Instead I have this killer pain in my head, throat, back, and every other part of me that has the ability to ache. I should be outside taking a nice long walk with my dog and enjoying this beautiful sunny day. But for me I will be laying in bed wishing I could feel any way other than I do now.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Essay 6

People say that in this computer age the computer is replacing human beings. Well in a way they are kind of right. But I like to think of it more as a computer is designed like the human. If you think about it a computer has a motherboard, which is like the human brain, it has a modem which is like the human mouth and voice, and a computer gets overloaded and crashes once and a while. If you ask me that sounds a whole lot like the human body.
When I think about how my brain works I am amazed at how much it is like the mother board in a computer. A computer needs a mother board to tell all the other components what to do and how to do what it is doing. Without the mother board the hard drive wouldn't know what information needs to be saved and what information can be thrown out. Like a mother board, the human brain runs the rest of our body. Now we don't use a sequence of 0's and 1's to tell us what to do but we do use certain environmental quiz, for example if it is hot we sweat, well it didn't take a numerical code to tell our body that but it took an internalized environmental qua. One thing that our brain operates is our mouth and our ability to use a voice.
This is similar to the modem in a computer. We click a button and the mother board tells the modem to connect to the internet where we email and instant message people from all over the world. Like the modem in a computer human beings are equip with a mouth. Some people more than others, are very good at using their mouth to communicate with others. Using our mouth we get what we want and we communicate our feelings with others, just as a computer does with its modem.
Like the human body a computer has many small pieces or organs that all work together to make the computer run smoothly. And just as humans get over loaded so does a computer. When a computer gets overloaded you see a blue screen that says error, when a human gets overloaded you see them get angry or depressed. Humans are known for causing themselves to have an overload because their internal system didn't send a good enough warning that if anymore information is thrown in they just wont be able to process it, and the same thing happen with computers.
Now you see the world isn't replacing people with computers they are simple creating computers that imitate humans so that things can be done quicker and easier without overloading the human race. It is a much better option to have a $500 dollar computer crash than it is to have a priceless human being crash.

Monday, April 24, 2006

Freestyle Week #12
As I sit at my dilapidate computer desk that I really need to get some work done. But it is so hard, I just can't seem to make myself get anything done. As I punch out words with the keys my keyboard sways back and forth as the short leg on my desk bounces off the floor. It is defiantly time to get a new computer desk. That's what I will do, I will go to Wal*Mart and get a new computer desk. If I have a new desk I will be able to do my homework for sure. It will only take two and a half hours to get to Bangor and back. That will give me plenty of time to get my homework done tonight and I can get up early and go to class. So I grab my purse and head for the car. Oh Shit, the frigin tire is flat. I know how to change a flat so I get out the very heavy red jack and start pumping. Once the car is jacked off the ground I realize that it isn't going to be that easy for me to change the tire because I have already forgot to loosen the lug nuts. So I release the jack and get out the four way. Well, now I realize that it is much easier to watch than it is to actually loosen the lug nuts. I jump on the four way. I kick the four way. I do a kick jump combination, and nothing not even an inch of a turn. What the hell am I going to do now, it is a good thing I got this flat in the drive way and not on the side of the road in Jackson in the middle of a blizzard. After about an hour of trying my husband comes home and changes the tire for me. Now I am not left with a whole lot of time to get my computer desk. So I have him drive me to Bangor because he drives faster. I was right once I finally got to leave the house it took about two and a half hours to get the desk. So now I am home with a new computer desk, and I have to put it together. My husband and I try to put it together without using the directions and realize that there is a reason they put the in the package, on top of everything as a matter of fact. So after about an hour we have the desk together and I start hooking up the computer. From start to finish it took me abut 4 hours to get my new desk and I am left with about 45 minutes to do my homework and get to bed. So I sit and admire my new desk and really get to wok on the paper I have to write. Three hours, and 6 pages later I am done with my homework. It is about 12:30 so I hit print and hit the pillow. I wake up in the morning and go to grab my paper and there is nothing there, not even a blank piece of paper. I had failed to notice that the printer was empty. Needless to say by the time I got my paper printed and made my way to class I was 10 minutes late, instead of my planned 10 minutes early. Moral of the story, even the best laid procrastination plans, are destined for failure.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Prompt Reaction Week 12

Love at first sight?

I enter the small coffee shop expecting nothing more than a nice cup of hot chocolate to go, I never expected to meet the man of my dreams. I never believed in love at first sight until he caught my attention from across the crowded room. He was standing with one foot on top of the other, his knee bent with one arm leaning on the counter. He was standing there without a care in the world flirting with the young cashier. As he walked away with his coffee in hand I "acciently" bumped in to him. He smelled of sweet cologne, and his hair bounced as we bumped arms. He looked at me with the most amazingly beautiful blue eyes I have ever seen. My insides melted as he apoligized for bumping me. His hand brushed my arm as he asked if I was alright. He seemed to be stuck to me, as though he was feeling what I was. We stood there in that same spot as though both of us were glued in place. He asked me if I was in a hurry and even though I was I couldn't pull myself away from him. So there we sat, chatting for hours, and falling in love.

Friday, April 14, 2006

Background

Over the past few years I have really developed a love for working with children. I work at a small daycare center in the Bangor area. Since I have worked there I have dealt with more kinds of people than I have in my whole life. I have been able to interact with children from all different backgrounds, which has taught me a lot about people in general. I work a lot with two and three year olds so I have had a lot of experience with children going through what is sometimes known as the terrible twos. Some people say it is just a myth but children at that age can sometimes make you want to pull your hair out. Today for example I had children running all over the place screaming and biting each other. There are some children who listen and those who don't even know you exist and who don't hear you yelling "we need to use our walking feet". I have also spend a lot of time with my nieces and nephews. On the weekends and school vacations I spend a lot of time with them. I love being around children when I go to a house where there are kinds my caregiver instincts kick in and I am ready to play and set some rules. I love being around children so much that I rarely ever shut off that child side of me. I think I started to love children when my mom starting taking care of a few of my cousins when I was about 5. I loved coming home from school to help take care of the kids. I was the youngest in my family and it felt great to have little ones look up to me. I never went to daycare myself, my mom stayed at home to raise me and those reasons combine are why I want to own my own daycare.
Why
Children, what can I say about children that a normal person doesn't know. You either love them or you want to rip your hair out every time you hear their little voices. I happen to love children. I love the idea of teaching and caring for children. I think it is amazing how much influence you can have in a child's life by just taking care of their basic needs. I also want to own my own daycare because I have this obsession with having children of my own and not having to send them to a daycare. I want to be the one who gets to spend the entire day with my child, I want to know exactly what is going on with them. So I decided that I could have the best of both worlds. I can have my dream job and still be with my children. If I start my own daycare I will be able to keep my children at home but I will also be able to teach. My children will be able to socialize with other children and still be with me. I also think me having a daycare is a way for me to interact with adults as well. I won't just be with children all the time, I will still be able to talk to the parents and any other workers that I hire. I don't want to just talk to children all the time because then I might become one of those annoying people who always talk to adults like they too are children. Also in order to have a daycare I have to go to training, conferences and occasionally take a class or two. I think that will be a great way for me to keep myself educated, involved with children, and have my dream of being a stay at home mom. I have a lot of experience with daycare centers, as I have worked in one for almost two years, but I have a lot of questions about having a family or in home daycare. A lot of my questions are based around licensing guidelines. I need to know how many kids and what age ranges I am allowed to have in my own home. There are lots of regulations about testing your home, so I need to know what test are needed and who to contact about having the testing done. I need to know what my towns regulations are about opening a home daycare. I need to know about the Maine food program and about meal planning. Along with all the regulations I need to get an idea of the materials I need to have in my home for the children, things which include: cribs, high chairs, tables and chairs, mats for sleeping, art materials, toys, food, ect. There are so many things that you need to do and things you need to know that I don't want to go into this blind.
What

Well, I know that there is a lot of work involved with opening a daycare. It is an endless amount of paper work and phone calls. I know that there is a licensing handbook that lays out the states minimum guidelines for having a daycare. I don't however know what all those guidelines are. I know that when you have a home daycare there are tighter restrictions on how many children one adult can be with. I also know that the state of Maine has a food program that helps reimburse or give you a tax break for the food you provide for the children. I would like to know what types of food qualify for the food program and what kind of paper work goes with that. I would guess that things like twinkies and Kool-Aid don't qualify for the food program but I'm not really sure about that. It is also important for the daycare provider to have a handbook that lays out all the policies of the daycare so that parents are aware of how things are run and what the expectations are for them. I would like to talk to somebody who has a home daycare to get a better idea of what such a handbook would look like. I would also like to know the best way to set up my daycare to promote automy and literacy. There is just so much that goes along with a daycare and I think that the questions I have mentioned are just the tip of the iceberg and I think in doing my search I will find answers to questions I don't even know I have.

The Search

It was easy for me to choose my topic because it is something that I am round every day. I thought information would just fly at me, but it wasn't quite as easy to come to me as I thought it would be. I think the more I wanted to give up on finding more information, the easier it started to come to me. It was sitting in front of my face but I couldn't see it because I was looking to hard.
First I went to the internet, because everything in on the internet. I searched the maine.gov site for hours looking for helpful links. I found a couple that gave me information that is in the Maine state licensing guide. I called to have a copy of the guide sent to me and it still hasn't arrived. So I have copied some pages of it from the daycare I work at. Also online I found some helpful sites about how to prevent the spread of disease, which in important in a daycare setting.
Then I started thinking about the fact that I do go to school for Early Childhood Education and there should be information in my books. I started reading over my text books and I found some great information about how to set up a classroom, and how to foster an enriched reading environment.
Finally I decided to talk to my boss and the director of our daycare to see what it took for them to get their daycare started. I asked them questions about everything from what she did when she got the initial idea, to what she does about taxes and payroll.
I think I found a lot of great resources. I think the interviews were by far the most helpful because I got an idea of the whole process and not just a few pieces of it. I realized that opening a daycare is a lot harder than it sounds, and I also made a decision that I want to open a home daycare and not daycare center. Which will help focus my search for information a little bit more.
The Answer
What I learned is a lot of little things that all come together to form a daycare. I learned that you can't find out everything that you need to know with just a few resources. I found a lot of book material that tells me little bits, but most of the information comes from phone calls and converstations with a maine daycare licneser, which is almost impossible unless you are really opening a daycare. So I found a lot of technical informations. There are still some loose ends to be tied up before acutally opening a daycare but the information I found gives me a good jump start. Storm Kelso Interview)
Licensing
First of all you have a copy of the Maine State Daycare Licensing Handbook sent to you. A home daycare can have a mixumum of 8 children under the age of 5 years old. You can have either 4 children under the age of two, or 8 children over the age of 2, or if you want to mix the ages you can have 3 under the age of two years old and up to 6 children under the age of 5. (Daycare.com/Maine) Each daycare needs to write policies adressing things such as dress codes, dropping off and picking up proceedures, diapering, illness, and anything else that a daycare wants to add. A policy book should be shown or given to each parent and staff memeber if there is more than one. This is important to that there is no comfusion on what is expected and there is somethign to protect the daycare from liabilities. (Storm Kelso Interview)
Room set up
I realized through reading one of my text books that there is a lot to think about when setting up a daycare facility. There is more to it that just filling the room with toys and making it look pretty. In order to promote automy amound young children you should have your daycare space set up in a way that allows the children to do things for themselves. You should have low shelving that allows them to get toys for themselves, there should be low tables in chairs for them so sit at and work independently. You need to have developmentally appropriate materials available for the children to use. Things such as crayons, washable markers, and paper should be where children can get to it, but is absolutely has to be non-toxic. The room design should be friendly and welcoming. There is a standard Environment Assesment form that can be used to determine if the setting has a good physical layout, welcoming, aestetically pleasing, well furnished, and safe for the developmental level of the children. It may not seem like a big deal to just set up a room but if you want children to feel as though they are independent and can do things for themselves you have to provide oppertunity for them to do so. (Guiding Children's Social Development Theroy to Practice)

Room set up to promote literacy
Encouraging children to enjoy reading is one of the most important goals of a care giver, besides health and safety. It is important to foster a positive idea of reading and writing. A room should be set up so that children can easily access developmentally approtriate materials. In any daycare you should have a designated area for reading. Children should be able to go and sit comfortable by themselves, with a peer or with an adult to read and share books. It is important that the materials be apporpriate for the age and developmental level of the children. All books should be previewed before set out for the children. Variety of types of books is also important. Even infants can enjoy books, for infants board books, or cloth books are recommended. But the most important thing is to provide pleanty of oppertunity and comfortable space for the children to enjoy reading. (Growing up with Literature)
Healthy Children
This is kind of common sense information that everybody should already know, but they might need a reminder once and a while. The most important thing you have to worry about at your daycae is keeping the children safe and healthy. Anytime a child is sick with anything that can be spread to the others a notices should be posted for all teh parents to see, without identifing the sich child. There needs to be a policy for the correct way to diaper children and dispose of trash. It is important that all staff are using the same procedure to prevent the spread of illness through fecal oral communication. (http://www.maine.gov/dhhs/occhs/childcare.doc & http://www.kidsource.com/health/ABCs.child.care.html ) Children should be taught good handwashing and hygeine skills. Whomever is working with the children should model the approptiate behaviors. In the hand book it sets limits for sick children. Any child with a fever must be sent home and cannot return to daycare until 24 hours after the fever. Any child who vomits must be sent home or kept home for 24 hours aswell. It is important for the daycare to document when children are sick or abset so that they can protect themselves and the other children. (Amy St. Louis Interview) The most important thing that I learned is that the daycare and the parents need to be on the same page when it comes to disease and illness prevention. It is important that the parents know and follow the guidelines set by the state of Maine and the daycare to prevent as much illness as possible.
Food & Nutrition
I didn't find as much information about this as I had hoped. I did however learn that there is a food pyarmid for differnet age groups of children so that you can best meet each child's nutritional needs. It is important that you stick to health foods that are common sense. Low fat milk, crackers, fresh fruits and vegatables, Whole wheat bread, peanutbutter (for those over age 1), pastas, and of course limit fatty and sweet foods. (Storm Kelso Interview) Food should be prepared in a steril environment with clean utinsils and dishes. Good handwashing practices should be used when handeling foods aswell. Other than that most of the agencies I tried to contact have yet to return my calls so I didn't get as much technical information as I was hoping for.
Over all I learned more information than I expected, I really think that I got a good sense of what I need to expect when I decide to open my own daycare. It is going to be a lot of hard work, and phone calls where you are put on hold and sent on a wild goose chase to find the information you are looking for. I think I got a really good start for when it comes time to open my daycare.
The Future
WIth all the informaiton I have found I have a great headstart to opening a home daycare. I found out the kind of environment I need to provide for the children to help them do things for themselves, what kind of things are expected from teh state of maine, how to promot literacy, and what kind of foods and prepration of foods is the best for a health child. There are hudnreds mroe things that I will need to find out of course, but a lot of the rules will change between now and the time I open my daycare. Through doing this I have realized that not everything happens over night and I will need to start preparing for my daycare months in advance to when I acutally want to open it. Through doing this I am even more excited then ever about having my own daycare. I even though of a name for my daycare... LittleField of Dreams Daycare.
Annotate sources
Kostelnik, Marjorie Ph.D., Whiren, Alice Ph.D., Soderman, Anne Ph.D., and Gregory, Kara Ph.D..Guiding Children's Social Development, Theory to Practice. Chapter 9. US: Thomas Delmar Learning, 2006.
A text book that describes how creating an environment can affect cognative and affective learning.
Sawyer, Walter E. Growing up With Literature. Chpaters 2 & 3. NY: Thomas Delmar Learning, 2004.
A text book that talks about how to design a classroom or in this case a daycare setting to encourage literacy. Also talks about what kinds of books are good for each age group.
Kelso, Storm. Personal Interview. 4 April 2006.
St.Louis, Amy. Personal Interview. 4 April 2006.
These are two personal interviews conduted with the owner and director of The Crayon Box Daycare. Questions covered about what it took to start the daycare, what is involved in running it etc.
Maine State Requirements URL: http://www.daycare.com/Maine 3 March 2006-not sure if this is right.
This gives the basic provider/ child ratio for family child care. This gives you the worker qualifications. It also gives contact information for other Maine resources such as the Child Care Food Program Agency.
Rules for licensing of Child Care Facilities.http://www.maine.gov/dhhs/occhs/childcare.doc 3 March 2006
This gives you some of the regulations for having a daycare center or a small daycare.This will be good to compare with the Department of Human Services handbook.Another one is the Maine State Licensing Handbook which is in the mail and I will post that as soon as it arrives.
Kid Source, The ABC's of Safe and Healthy Childcare
This talks a little about disease and how it is spread. It tells how to help prevent that spread of disease in a child care setting.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Prompt Reaction #11
"Just calm down and begin at the beginning. You know I can't understand you when you scream at me 90 miles a minute." I am looking at my friend Sam she just bolted down the the street, almost broke my door off its hinges when she threw it open and now she is standing in front of me sweat pouring from her brow, face as red as a hydrant, and so out of breath she sounds like a panting dog trying to bark words at me.
"I made it, I'm in" She slowly whispers at me as she is trying to catch her breath.
"You made it where?" "here, I noticed you made it here but what the hell is going on? Was your trip okay?"
Finally she has caught her breath, and calmly as she can, she tells me her urgent news.
"Well, you know I went to Boston, but I didn't really tell you why. I didn't want to jinx myself. I went to try out for American Idol."
"You what? And you didn't tell me, your best friend since BIRTH."
"I'm sorry, but I made it, I'm going to Hollywood, I'm just home long enough to get my things!"
"Holy shit, oh my god, this is amazing! I'm so happy for you. See I always told you that you had an amazing voice."
We hold each others arms and bounce around the room like school girls. She made it, she actually made it on American Idol. We have watched every episode of every season of that show ever since is aired. And now my best friend is going to be on the show. And she is going to be the next American Idol. Holy Shit!

Freestyle week 11

This week feels like a wind down. I should be really nervous and stressed because I have an ISearch draft due, a developmental profile due, two chapter summaries and a literacy file due. But to tell the truth I'm not a bit stressed. I have my time planned out and hopefully everything will go as planned. If no I will be up all night doing my ISearch first draft. I think I am still on a little bit of a high from closing on our house. After all the time we spend looking, putting in offers, having our offers turned down, and the finally the whole loan process for the house we chose, I need to just relax and swim in the good feeling of everything being DONE!! School is almost over for the year, and I just quit my horrible job. So the only thing I have left to do is finish all my school work and find another job. Even though that would usually be overwhelming for me I am not going to let it stress me out. I'm going to stand strong!!

ISearch
The Search
It was easy for me to choose my topic because it is something that I am round every day. I thought information would just fly at me, but it wasn't quite as easy to come to me as I thought it would be. I think the more I wanted to give up on finding more information, the easier it started to come to me. It was sitting in front of my face but I couldn't see it because I was looking to hard.

First I went to the internet, because everything in on the internet. I searched the maine.gov site for hours looking for helpful links. I found a couple that gave me information that is in the Maine state licensing guide. I called to have a copy of the guide sent to me and it still hasn't arrived. So I have copied some pages of it from the daycare I work at. Also online I found some helpful sites about how to prevent the spread of disease, which in important in a daycare setting.
Then I started thinking about the fact that I do go to school for Early Childhood Education and there should be information in my books. I started reading over my text books and I found some great information about how to set up a classroom, and how to foster an enriched reading environment.
Finally I decided to talk to my boss and the director of our daycare to see what it took for them to get their daycare started. I asked them questions about everything from what she did when she got the initial idea, to what she does about taxes and payroll.
I think I found a lot of great resources. I think the interviews were by far the most helpful because I got an idea of the whole process and not just a few pieces of it. I realized that opening a daycare is a lot harder than it sounds, and I also made a decision that I want to open a home daycare and not daycare center. Which will help focus my search for information a little bit more.

Friday, March 31, 2006

Essay 5
Division or Example

To everything in life there is a map, a recipe or a list of components if you will. Being a good student is no exception, whether you are a middle school, high school or a college student there is a recipe that needs to be followed in order to get a pleasant result. Any good student must be organized enough to be readily able to find things, they must participate in class, and they must put 100% effort in if they want to get a good grade. Now like any recipe there are slight variations to this but any variation has a little different outcome, some not so pleasant.
First of all a good student should be organized. They need to have folders or binders with their work in them with some kind of system so that when they need to find something they can find it without going through every bit of work they have done for the past year. I am a very organized person. All my classes have folders which are plainly labeled and they are all divided into sections so that I can easily find things. I am really good about being on time to class and coming prepared with everything I need, including homework completed. One variation from the recipe I have is that I don't like to participate very much.
I am a very shy person and rarely volunteer to answer questions or even as questions if I don't understand things. A good, well rounded student, needs to be willing to participate in discussions, answering questions and once and a while maybe participate in a demonstration. This lets the teacher know that the student isn't just sitting in class dreaming about their girlfriend or boyfriend. Teacher like to know that students are listening and understanding the material. A good way to show a teacher that you are listening is to look at them when they are talking and make eye contact when appropriate.
Another thing that is important is trying. A good student should put 100% effort in everything they do. If you work really hard on one project then kind of slack off on the next the teacher is going to know. They know when you just did it real quick before class started, and they are likely to grade with that in mind. In my opinion there isn't much point in doing something if you aren't going to do your best, it is kind of a waste of time. I just try to do everything as good as I can because of the perfectionist who hides deep in my soul.
Now I'm not saying that there is any such thing as a perfect student, because there isn't even a such thing as a perfect cookie, even if you do follow the recipe to the tee, everybody's oven varies cooking times. But it is important that everybody who wants to be a successful student try their hardest to be a good cookie. I always tell myself if you don't try then there is no chance you will succeed.

Annotate sources Uptaded

Kostelnik, Marjorie Ph.D., Whiren, Alice Ph.D., Soderman, Anne Ph.D., and Gregory, Kara Ph.D..
Huiding Children's Social Development, Theory to Practice. Chapter 9. US: Thomas Delmar Learning, 2006.
A text book that describes how creating an environment can affect cognative and affective learning.

Sawyer, Walter E. Growing up With Literature. Chpaters 2 & 3. NY: Thomas Delmar Learning, 2004.
A text book that talks about how to design a classroom or in this case a daycare setting to encourage literacy. Also talks about what kinds of books are good for each age group.

Kelso, Storm. Personal Interview. 4 April 2006.
St.Louis, Amy. Personal Interview. 4 April 2006.
These are two personal interviews conduted with the owner and director of The Crayon Box Daycare. Questions covered about what it took to start the daycare, what is involved in running it etc.

Maine State Requirements URL: http://www.daycare.com/Maine 3 March 2006-not sure if this is right.
This gives the basic provider/ child ratio for family child care. This gives you the worker qualifications. It also gives contact information for other Maine resources such as the Child Care Food Program Agency.Rules for licensing of Child Care Facilities

http://www.maine.gov/dhhs/occhs/childcare.doc 3 March 2006This gives you some of the regulations for having a daycare center or a small daycare.
This will be good to compare with the Department of Human Services handbook.Another one is the Maine State Licensing Handbook which is in the mail and I will post that as soon as it arrives.

Kid Source, The ABC's of Safe and Healthy Childcare
http://www.kidsource.com/health/ABCs.child.care.html 20 April, 2000.
This talks a little about disease and how it is spread. It tells how to help prevent that spread of disease in a child care setting.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Prompt Reaction week 10
They say the best things in life are free. Now how the hell can that be? I go to work everyday and bust my ass to make enough money to buy the things I desire out of life. If the best things in life are free than I need to go quit my job now. I want a car, well that's not free to win it through a raffle I still have to buy a ticket. This is America and nothing is free you fool.
Oh but wait maybe that's my problem, not everything in life that is worth anything is a material possession. Now how's the fool. The best things in life are moments in time, memories that you can't pay for, friends you can't buy, and children that you can never replace with any dollar amount. The best things in life are free because they are people and experiences, and you can't buy either of those. The best things in life are the things that happen to us with out us asking for them. They are the things that we sometimes don't even realize are small miracles until they are taken from us. If you believe in the theory of the TV show Charmed, there is a balance in the world, with every bit of good there exists the same amount of evil. This is somewhat true because for every good memory, we have a bad. For every good person in this world we have an evil one, somebody who would shoot their child, their free gift, their irreplaceable good memory. There is always going to be good and bad to our lives and both can be free. The key to being happy is to look at the good and the bad and see them both as gifts to us. Even the bad has its silver lining. Even the bad is given to us for a reason, it is there to teach us to appreciate our free gifts. We don't always appreciate things until they are gone so life has a way of throwing a painful memory in the mix to make us realize how special the good memories are. So I guess this is right, the best things in life are free, but you still need to go to work because food isn't always free.

Freestyle Week 10
Now I have never been they type to keep a journal but I have been going over my freestyle pieces from this class and I have realized that they come together to be a journal. A very mixed up, from one topic to the other, yet still very much connected journal. A compilation of my ranting and ravings over a weeks time. I don't write about everything that happened over the week, I just pick one thing, but subconsciously I think the thing I choose to write about is the one thing that sums up everything, good and bad that happened to me throughout the week. For example today I was going to write about how I injured two of my fingers on Monday. Now that one incident has changed the course of my entire week. First of all I missed work that day because I couldn't stand the pain. Then I had a really hard time typing a paper that was due, as I am now having a hard time typing this. To top if off I am going to have a shitty paycheck so I won't be able to do the things I planned on doing this weekend. This goes to show how one second in time can change your life. When I thought about writing that I then got this idea of how I use this for a journal. I don't think that is even what the freewrite is really intended for but every time I have been told that up until now it has always meant to write a sort of journal entry, so here we are. :)

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Prompt Reaction Week 9
The mug was heavy with lamplight...(onemillionfootnoted.com)

The mug was heavy with lamplight, it had been sitting there for three hours while I attempted to pound out my final paper. The one paper that stood between me and my associates degree. The paper I had put off for weeks, and that is now due first thing in the morning, which is now only a few short hours away. As I lift my mug with only a few cold sips lift I start thinking about my last paragraph. I want my last paper I ever have to write for school to end with a bang but at this point in my night I am afraid I might settle for a small boom. It is though the weight of the lamplight in not only on my mug but the outer edges of the light are spread like encyclopedias across my fingers which are barely help up by the keys on the keyboard. They don't want to move, I don't have the strength. Five more sentences and I am done, I will never have to think of this again. There is nothing to it, but to do it I tell myself as I finally put every ounce I have left into pushing those keys to finish those sentences. The only thing left to do now is slowly lift my hand, push with every bit of might I have left in me and... the weight has been lifts as though a crane has just been used. Quickly and steadily I am freed from my never ending burden. My paper is done, and the lamp is off.

Essay 4
Process Essay

Now here is something that I have to do every day. I never really thought that I did it in a specific way until I hurt my leg and my husband had to do it all. He just didn't have any idea how to do things the fight way and it almost drove me nuts. I was so helpless I couldn't move, all I could do was lay there and say, "honey, I usually do it this way". He would pause for a minute, look at me with this look that says, "do you want me to do it or not, if you do shut the hell up". Cleaning the whole house should be done in certain steps.

First you should wash the dishes, counter tops and table. When you wash the dishes they should be put in hot water to soak for a few minutes. While they soak you should wash off all the counter tops and the table. By they time you are done the dishes are ready to be washed. When he washes the dishes it drives me a little crazy. He washes every piece of silverware separately and takes a lot of time on each thing. I think it is okay to have two or three things in your hand and just make sure they all get washed. So I lay there and watch his tedious actions. Finally after a half an hour he is done with the dishes. Being a good husband he looks at me with his annoyed smile and say, "what next my dear?"

Well dusting and sweeping of course. I sweep and dust because when you sweep dust floats though the room and lands all over things. My husband on the other hand takes out the Swiffer and starts dusting. I have this loud sigh that lets him know I don't like what he is doing. He is soon corrected and grabs the broom to sweep first. Once the kitchen is swept he moves to the bathroom. While he is there I gimp to the sink where I fix how he stacked the dishes so they don't fall over. By the time I make my way back to the couch he is done with the bathroom and returns to dust the whole house.

Now it is time to vacuum. Before I start vacuuming I usually throw the laundry in the washer so it is done and ready to go in the dryer when I am done vacuuming. My husband obviously has forgotten about laundry as he starts up the vacuum. So I throw myself deeper into the couch and let out my loud sign. He hears it over the motor of the vacuum and stops. "Now what am I doing wrong?" "Well nothing really honey. Your doing a great job. But what if you throw the clothes in the wash so they are ready to dry when your done." "Good thinking, makes perfect sense, thanks." He agrees with me with his sarcastic, shut up voice again. The whole house gets vacuumed and looks amazing. He throws the clothes in the dryer and sits on the couch next to me.

"You really have t his down to a system don't you?" he says to me in a tired voice. " I do, sorry if I bothered you, I just wanted it to be as easy as possible for you." "No problem honey, I know you mean well." We smile and give a quick kiss before he is off to take care of the now stacked right, clean dishes.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Freestyle # 9

I had a little experience that kind of clued me in to one of the things I will have to do when I have my own daycare. I had to create and facilitate a game. In doing so I realized how hard it is to create a game, rules and find supplies that will accomidate children of all my ages in my daycare. It is really hard to watch over a game and make sure that you are providing the support and instructions that is needed. It really took me a long time to get in the hang of being the one who is in charge of the game. I mean I just got out of high school a couple years ago I used to always be the one playing the game, not creating and running it. What an eye opening experience.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Essay 3
Contrast Essay REVISED AGAIN
My sister and I are like oil and water. We are alike because you can cook with both, and if you look at them in a bottle they are kind of similar. That is my sister and I. We have kind of the same facial features and we have the same mother, but I it is because we have different fathers that we are different in many ways. We are a like in looks but miles apart in personality.
She is a stay at home mom, and she loves it. This is something that we sort of agree on. I too want to be at home with my children, but I wouldn't be able to stand just being there and not making any money, or without doing something other than the household things. That is why I want to have a daycare at my house. My sister has never even had a job. Her and her husband agreed that she wouldn't have to work but they were going to have to budget and keep expenses to a minumum. This is something I could never do. I have to work, since I was 15 I have been working and I can't picture myself not having the kind of responsibility that comes with having a job.
Since she doesn't work she doesn't have much for posessions. Me on the other hand, I love to go shopping, get new cars, and have a nice house.Her house is in need of repairs but they can't afford it. My husband and I just baught a really nice new house. I love my sister to death but she just has such a low standard of living that it is really hard for me to go to her hosue and see what she has to live in, because I know with a little hard work she could have something so much nicer. She is so conservative, she doesn't ask for much out of life.
One thing that she has to have out of life is cigaretts. She can't live 20 minutes without one of those things. Me I have never touched one in my life. My sister has been smoking since she was 12 and she wouldn't stop if she had to smoke through a hole in her throat. She is so easily addicted to things, even the computer. If the internet ceased to exist so would she. She wouldn't know what to do with herself because about 8 hours of her day are spent on the computer. Me on the other hand I hate anything that makes me feel dependent. I hate being on the computer. I think it is boring and a major waste of my time. When I get on the computer I stare at the screen and try to remember what I can do that wont bore me.
So there we have it. Two people who share so much but are worlds apart. I love and respect my sister but we have a lot of differing views. The one thing that we can actually have a converstanion about is children, she is a stay at home mom and I am a child care giver so we have a common ground to talk and share our feelings and opinions. I love sitting with my sister talking about her chidren. Her oldest daughter is a lot like me and I spend a lot of time with her and my sister doing girl things. People who don't really know us would never guess that we are sisters, our looks aren't similar enough to make our personalities seem any less opposite.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Freestyle Week 8

The excitement is as massive as a mountain range as I await closing day. On April 17th, my husband and I will own our first house. An amazing house with a basement and a four car garage and to top it off a bass filled spring fed pond. The anticipation just might cause me to have a stroke. I feel my insides pump and pound with adrenalin. The excitement is so overwhelming when I drive by it that I have to pull over. The killer part is that the owners are going to rent it from us until June when he gets transferred to California. I don't know if my insides can handle waiting that long. I just hope that I don't collapse the day I finally get to move in.

Friday, March 17, 2006

Prompt Reaction #8

A room full of old people, and I am looking for just one, Virginia. I squeeze my way through the activity room where people are playing checkers and chess, scrabble and dominos, in search of sweet ol' Virginia. smells of Musk perfume fill my senses. Memories of my own grandmother fill my body, the sweet smell of old lady perfume brings back so many memories. Finally I see her, sitting in the corner of the room knitting what appears to be a pair of mittens. "My sweet dear, you made it." Her rasphy warn our voice brings a smile to my face. "I wouldn't miss today for all the cookies in the jar, Virginia." I am a volunteer and go to visit her once a week, more when I have the extra time. We sit for hours as she tells me stories of her life. She is 87 and has more stories that all the libraries, about love and hardship. She was married to a miner named Earl, and she was the mother of five children. One of the oldest boys had autism. Back then it wasn't something that people really excepted to they moved a lot because people would torment him and the entire family. Finally they found a small town on the coast of Maine, where people didn't really seem to mind how different Roy was. Of course Earl had to work at the Stensins, but they didn't mind the smell of fish. Virginia would sit for hours telling her stories, if you look at her eyes, she isn't there with you, she is back in the story, her face is filled with the same emotions as if she were there that very day. I my mind wanders I look around the room and see all these people sitting there like books waiting to be opened to tell their stories. It is almost heart wrenching to think that there isn't anybody there to listen to their stories. For a moment my heart is saddened. "Are you still with me dear?" "Of course Virginia, so how old was Roy when this happened?"

Essay 3
Contrast Essay

My sister and I are like oil and water. We are alike because you can cook with both, and if you look at them in a bottle they are kind of similar. That is my sister and I. We have kind of the same facial features and we have the same mother, but I it is because we have different fathers that we are different in many ways. We are a like in looks but miles apart in personality.

She is a stay at home mom, and she loves it. This is something that we sort of agree on. I too want to be at home with my children, but I wouldn't be able to stand just being there and not making any money, or without doing something other than the household things. That is why I want to have a daycare at my house. My sister has never even had a job. Her and her husband agreed that she wouldn't have to work but they were going to have to budget and keep expenses to a minumum. This is something I could never do. I have to work, since I was 15 I have been working and I can't picture myself not having the kind of responsibility that comes with having a job.

Since she doesn't work she doesn't have much for posessions. Me on the other hand, I love to go shopping, get new cars, and have a nice house. Her house is in need of repairs but they can't afford it. My husband and I just baught a really nice new house. I love my sister to death but she just has such a low standard of living that it is really hard for me to go to her hosue and see what she has to live in, because I know with a little hard work she could have something so much nicer. She is so conservative, she doesn't ask for much out of life.

One thing that she has to have out of life is cigaretts. She can't live 20 minutes without one of those things. Me I have never touched one in my life. My sister has been smoking since she was 12 and she wouldn't stop if she had to smoke through a hole in her throat. She is so easily addicted to things, even the computer. If the internet ceased to exist so would she. She wouldn't know what to do with herself because about 8 hours of her day are spent on the computer. Me on the other hand I hate anything that makes me feel dependent. I hate being on the computer. I think it is boring and a major waste of my time. When I get on the computer I stare at the screen and try to remember what I can do that wont bore me.

So there we have it. Two people who share so much but are worlds apart. I love and respect my sister but we have a lot of differing views. One thing that we have in common, other than our looks, is that we both love family, nothing will ever be more inportant to either of us than our families.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Freestyle Week #7

House hunting, what a process. My husband and I have spent the last 6 weeks looking for a house. We have put an offer in on three. One was turned down, one was a big mess up and the other was put in 5 minutes to late. As my mom always said, "better to have bad luck, than no luck at all." That is just what we have, BAD luck. We spend from 7:30 Friday morning until 9:00 that night with our agent looking at houses. Though we didn't find any we want to buy, we have really become good friends with our agent. Nothing seems to have everything we want for our price range. And considering we are so young our price range is fairly high. But NOPE no luck. We did however have a Huge amount of luck selling our house, it sold in a day, so now we are living in somebody else's house and we can't seem to find one of our own. Now we have decided that we might have to give up a few things, either a garage or a basement most likely. It is frustrating because I am into the modern look and all the houses we find are 60 or 70 years old and they don't have that modern look, and I am willing to deal with that because we can always update the house but not when the house is in the highest amount of our price range. When will this hunt ever end, I just want to kick my shoes off and roll around on the floor in a place I can call my first REAL home.

Into the time machine and back to that unforgettable moment....
I never really thought about it when I heard people say that one moment can change your life forever. I realized just how true this was one beautiful winter morning my freshman year in high school.
I came to class distraught. It was the first day back from Christmas vacation. I though that my life was never going to change and the only way I was ever going to get out of the hell I was in was to run away or die. There was no bright light at the end of my tunnel, nothing but fear, pain and darkness. Most kids loved vacation, but for me it was a week of misery. When I wasn't in school I had to be home with my stepfather, who certainly wasn't a person I wanted to spend even a minute with. Over vacation he was extra mean, he knew that nobody would see me for a week so he could make marks and bring down my spirit even more. When I walked into the classroom he could tell instantly that something was the matter. All class I sat quietly, thoughts running through my head...How the hell am I going to end the pain? What about my mom? I can't leave her with him, she doesn't even know what he is like but I could never tell her, she is so in love and he is so good to her. When the bell rang my head was working to hard for me to hear it and I just sat there after everybody else left. Apparently there had been a tear running down my face and my teacher had noticed it. He came over to me. At this point in the year he knew me really well, I had spend a lot of time after school with him because he offered a lot of things for me to do, I took every opportunity I could to not go home. He sat down, got my attention, looked deep into my soul through my eyes and said one simple thing "when did it happen?" And in that one moment my life was changed forever. I never again went home to my stepfather, my mom and I moved from our falling apart house, her and I became best friends and life was so bright and joyous that to this day I can't imaging feeling as though there is no light at the end of my tunnel, because some days it is so bring that I can't even see I have to squint so much. One moment, one person, one amazing act of courage and kindness made the lowest moment in my life turn into a starting point, a restart if you will, and for this moment I can never in my life thank him enough.

Graf #14

I really like theses essays. I think it is fun to find something similar then kind of pick it apart with its differences. Those are some really personal stories it seems like it must be easier for people to write about their own families because they know them so well that it is natural to see the similarities and differences. Or even the town you grew up in, I know Searsport like the back of my hand and though it seems like other towns around it there are some real differences. I really think I am going to like to write this essay.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Graf #12
Research History

I have never thought of the outside of school research that I have done in my life. Now that I do, I think I am quite a researcher. I have had a lot of experiences in my life that have required me to do a little research. I have done everything from buying a car, buying a house, to getting married and planning a life to have a family.

As a child I was constantly researching whether or not my mothers husbands (two of them) were a right fit for our family. I would have to sit back every night and think... gee, does he really work well with my mothers needs, and at the same time are my needs going to me met. With the first husband that answer was a giant no. So I told my mom, she took all my research into consideration, did a little research of her own and decided that I was right. When she remarried my research changed a little not only did I have to see if he was a good fit, but I had something to compare it to, and it is always better to have more resources when doing research.

I think the thing I have researched the most is cars. In the three years I have had my license I have owned 4 cars and a truck and my husband has owned five cars. When all of these cars were purchased we had to think about what we liked about them, what we didn't like, whether or not it would fit our traveling needs, whether it would hold all the people we would want to drive around with and whether or not it was affordable and worth the price. Our first few choices were not the right ones for us, so by process of trial and error we finally choose the two cars and the truck that we own now. Along with cars comes insurance and you have to really research price and what the plan has to offer. With this I really did my homework, I talked to family members who have had insurance, I called probably 15 places getting quotes and finally decided to go with a nation wide company because they had more to offer for the money.

Then you have my getting married. Now this is something I have been researching since I was old enough to understand the relationship between my mom and dad. Every guy I dated, ever close male friend I had went in to a catalog in my head. All the positives and negatives were weighted and I went back to this every time I dated somebody new or thought about dating somebody new. Women do this as a form of protection. If there was something about a guy you dated in the past that you didn't like you don't want to go find another guy with the same trait because it didn't work the first time so it probably wont work the second time and the clock is always ticking, there isn't much time to waste. I was in a hurry to get married so I kept good notes in my head. When I met my husband I pulled out every card from the file and when over it with a fine tooth comb. I had to consider everything I noted in my research to find out if he was a good fit for the rest of my life. I had to look at his annoying habits and see if I could live with them. I had to see if he rated high enough on my romantic and attractiveness meter. I had to see how well he fit with my family, because family is very important to me, and most of all I had to see how well he fit with everything I had dreamed of for my future. Fortunately he passed with flying colors and I snatched him up before somebody else could research him.

Now that we are married we are looking for a house. Every house we look at we have a list of things we have thought about that we need to have in a house in order to be happy. All the things on the list are from research we have done through out our lives through our experiences. We want to live in a quite neighborhood with sidewalks to walk the dog, we want a three bedroom so we can have two children, we would also like a two car garage and a basement. These are all things that affect the price of a home. So then we have to consider whether or not we want a house we can move right into or one that needs a little fixing up. We know our answer to this question because the house we live in now needed a lot of fixing up before we could move into it and it still needs fixing up. We decided that we want to spend a little more money to get one that is done because we don't really have time time, nor the energy, to fix up a house. We want to pile our boxes in and slowly unpack in our new home.

So I guess from birth life is one big research project and the topic is happiness. Just because you get married and settle down, doesn't mean that the research comes to an end. I still have more research to do about when I want to have children, what I want to do when I'm out of college and so much more that I don't even think about.

Essay 2 REVISED
Classification

Water, sounds like a simple thing right? Wrong! This is the twenty first century and water isn't just that clear liquid you drink to quench your thirst. Or where I grew up a clear liquid with a little orange, iron haze. There are hundreds of types of water these days, but for the purposes of this essay I am going to tell you about three types. There is plain spring bottled water, then you have fruit flavored water, and the new and most far from the definition of water you have Life Water. Now your thinking what the heck is Life Water? Well, let me tell you about these amazing water spin offs.

First you have bottled spring water. The only type of water you will ever see anybody in my family drink, they are to old fashioned for new age inventions. This is simple pure water tasting water. Some might even say it has no flavor. Crystal clear and thirst quenching this is the simplest, most blah, water you can find. Completely natural and flowing from holes in the ground every where, yet we foolishly pay $1.25 a bottle because some how we feel it is just worth it to get the best life has to offer. Personally I don't believe in paying for something that I can turn a knob and get for free. There is only one kind of water you will ever find in my fridge and this isn't is. But plain water isn't always enough, we need to kick it up with little fruit flavor.

Now, I guess I can understand that some people still want that health benefits of water, but they think it has no flavor and they just can't bring themselves to drink it. So they take a little artificial fruit flavor and kick it up a notch. Now your streching the definition of water a little bit; it is still clear and it still quenches your thirst but it has fruit. Well if it has fruit in it and why not call it clear juice? I think this is the most artificial tasting junk that was ever invented. It doesn't taste like water but whatever that flavoring is in it certainly doesn't taste like fruit. When this stuff started to become popular I had to beg my mom to buy me a bottle. I guess that is where I get the idea that people shouldn't have to pay for water. The first taste I took of that poisoned stuff was the last. As if this isn't a strech for being water, we really stray from the definition when we start adding vitamins to our water.

Finally we have Life Water, a brand from a company I won't mention. Now this is colored, flavored like fruit, with added vitamins and antioxidants. As if water isn't healthy enough we have to add to it to make it just that much better. You have water which is no longer clear, and contains things such as fructose, citric acid, glycerol ester of wood rosin. What the heck? Can you really call this water. I would call it a multi-vitamin in a bottle. With flavors like passionfruit and citrus, and pomegranate and cherry it is bound to be better than your ordinary bottled spring water. As against buying water as I am I even surprise myself when I am at the supermarket with a cart full of this stuff, but I just love the taste. I don't buy it with the definition of water in mind. I have to tell myself that I am buying juice and really isn't that what it is anyway. When this stuff came out I actually quit drinking soda. This was a little upsetting to my husband who works for a soda company, but I am hooked on life water, which is his produce so we have smoothed over that speed bump. Life water is the best invention since plain ol' tap.

Now we have just entered the world of the twenty first century water selection. I hope that you are now informed enough to venture out and try more than just plain ol' crystal clear, bland, H2O. There is just so much more to life than a bottle of old fashioned water.

Monday, March 06, 2006

Essay 2
Classification
Water, sounds like a simple thing right? Wrong! This is the twenty first century and water isn't just that clear liquid you drink to quench your thirst. There are hundreds of types of water these days, but for the purposes of this essay I am going to tell you about three types. There is plain spring bottled water, then you have fruit flavored water, and the new and most far from the definition of water you have Life Water. Now your thinking what the heck is Life Water? Well, let me tell you about these amazing water spin offs.
First you have bottled spring water. This is simple pure water tasting water. Some might even say it has no flavor. Crystal clear and thirst quenching this is the simplest, most blah, water you can find. Completely natural and flowing from holes in the ground every where, yet we foolishly pay $1.25 a bottle because some how we feel it is just worth it to get the best life has to offer. But plain water isn't always enough, we need to kick it up with little fruit flavor.
Now, I guess I can understand that some people still want that health benefits of water, but they think it has no flavor and they just can't bring themselves to drink it. So they take a little artificial fruit flavor and kick it up a notch. Now your streching the definition of water a little bit; it is still clear and it still quenches your thirst but it has fruit. Well if it has fruit in it and why not call it clear juice? As if this isn't a strech for being water, we really stray from the definition when we start adding vitamins to our water.

Finally we have Life Water, a brand from a company I won't mention. Now this is colored, flavored, with added vitamins and antioxidants. As if water isn't healthy enough we have to add to it to make it just that much better. You have water which is no longer clear, and contains things such as fructose, citric acid, glycerol ester of wood rosin. What the heck? Can you really call this water. I would call it a multi-vitamin in a bottle. With flavors like passionfruit and citrus, and pomegranate and cherry it is bound to be better than your ordinary bottled spring water.
Now we have just entered the world of the twenty first century water selection. I hope that you are now informed enough to venture out and try more than just plan ol' crystal clear, bland, H2O. There is just so much more to life than a bottle of old fashioned water.

Isearch What

Well, I know that there is a lot of work involved with opening a daycare. It is an endless amount of paper work and phone calls. I know that there is a licensing handbook that lays out the states minimum guidelines for having a daycare. I don't however know what all those guidelines are. I know that when you have a home daycare there are tighter restrictions on how many children one adult can be with. I also know that the state of Maine has a food program that helps reimburse or give you a tax break for the food you provide for the children. I would like to know what types of food qualify for the food program and what kind of paper work goes with that. I would guess that things like twinkies and Kool-Aid don't qualify for the food program but I'm not really sure about that. It is also important for the daycare provider to have a handbook that lays out all the policies of the daycare so that parents are aware of how things are run and what the expectations are for them. I would like to talk to somebody who has a home daycare to get a better idea of what such a handbook would look like. There are lots of tax right offs that come along with having a daycare in your home but I don't know how to go about getting them so I would have to find that out as well. There is just so much that goes along with a daycare and I think that the questions I have mentioned are just the tip of the iceberg and I think in doing my search I will find answers to questions I don't even know I have.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Prompt Reaction #6

You haven't been there since you were little. Now you go back...

Wow, I haven't been here since I was six, it looks so much smaller now. I used to love coming here with my mom and dad. By the time I was six my brothers were old enough to not care about the place, so it was a special place I used to go with just mom and dad. I always thought the rock was bigger though. Now that I look at it is seems so over exaggerated. I used to love coming here because I could stand on this thing and feel like I was on top of the world. It gave me this feeling of power and bigness. Now I am almost as tall as the rock, so the feeling just isn't there. If it weren't for the memories of picnicking with my mom and dad at this very spot I don't think this rock would have a bit of meaning to me anymore, it sort of lost its appeal. It makes me wonder what their reasoning was for bringing me here? Maybe they just liked to give me that feeling of power. Standing from the rock you can seen an amazing view of the ocean, now it is a little obstructed by some trees that have grown but if you stand tall and lean a little to the left it is breath taking. You can live next to such an amazing body for your entire life and not appreciate its beauty until a moment like this when you come back to the place, fill your soul with fond memories, take a deep breath of the ocean's breath and absorb every ounce of beauty in a single moment.

Annotate sources

Maine State Requirements URL: http://www.daycare.com/Maine 3 March 2006
-not sure if this is right.

This gives the basic provider/ child ratio for family child care. This gives you the worker qualifications. It also gives contact information for other Maine resources such as the Child Care Food Program Agency.

Rules for licensing of Child Care Facilities http://www.maine.gov/dhhs/occhs/childcare.doc 3 March 2006

This gives you some of the regulations for having a daycare center or a small daycare. This will be good to compare with the Department of Human Services handbook.

Another one is the Maine State Licensing Handbook which is in the mail and I will post that as soon as it arrives.

Kid Source, The ABC's of Safe and Healthy Childcare http://www.kidsource.com/health/ABCs.child.care.html 20 April, 2000

This talks a little about disease and how it is spread. It tells how to help prevent that spread of disease in a child care setting.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

ISearch Why

Children, what can I say about children that a normal person doesn't know. You either love them or you want to rip your hair out every time you hear their little voices. I happen to love children. I love the idea of teaching and caring for children. I think it is amazing how much influence you can have in a child's life by just taking care of their basic needs. I also want to own my own daycare because I have this obsession with having children of my own and not having to send them to a daycare. I want to be the one who gets to spend the entire day with my child, I want to know exactly what is going on with them. So I decided that I could have the best of both worlds. I can have my dream job and still be with my children. If I start my own daycare I will be able to keep my children at home but I will also be able to teach. My children will be able to socialize with other children and still be with me. I also think me having a daycare is a way for me to interact with adults as well. I won't just be with children all the time, I will still be able to talk to the parents and any other workers that I hire. I don't want to just talk to children all the time because then I might become one of those annoying people who always talk to adults like they too are children. Also in order to have a daycare I have to go to training, conferences and occasionally take a class or two. I think that will be a great way for me to keep myself educated, involved with children, and have my dream of being a stay at home mom. I have a lot of experience with daycare centers, as I have worked in one for almost two years, but I have a lot of questions about having a family or in home daycare. A lot of my questions are based around licensing guidelines. I need to know how many kids and what age ranges I am allowed to have in my own home. There are lots of regulations about testing your home, so I need to know what test are needed and who to contact about having the testing done. I need to know what my towns regulations are about opening a home daycare. I need to know about the Maine food program and about meal planning. Along with all the regulations I need to get an idea of the materials I need to have in my home for the children, things which include: cribs, high chairs, tables and chairs, mats for sleeping, art materials, toys, food, ect. There are so many things that you need to do and things you need to know that I don't want to go into this blind.